Aimee Mann - “Soon Enough”
I love this song. I love this album. I love Aimee Mann.
For the home.
This is not normally an arena I use to go into personal issues, but I am making an exception today because I am pissed off and want to say this publicly. I am so tired of spending my time with men who treat me as an audience for their tales of grand adventures and epiphanies, as opposed to a person with a life of my own. I am not a sounding board. I did not buy a ticket to hear your poorly executed lecture on global issues. I do not need you to interrupt me and explain back topics I brought up. I am tired of waiting to see how long it will take to be asked anything about my own life or opinions. I’m fully aware that I don’t need to wait to be asked, but it is a depressing little game I’ve started playing with myself when I can’t bear to actively listen to any more drivel. I’m not quite sure who wins. It’s a shitty game.
Thankfully I have lots of men in my life who this rant does not apply to. Men who are my friends and I can have actual conversations with. Men who are self aware, gracious and just plain fun to be around. Men like my dad, who I consider the ultimate example of a good man. I am very very grateful for them.
So now I am going to post this as a reminder to myself to spend the little time I have with people who I am excited to talk to and who see me for me, and then take myself for a run to burn off the rage still burning a hole in my stomach. Thank you.